I was casually scrolling through Facebook today and there was this ongoing theme: the First and the Last, the Alpha and the Omega. As high school seniors, people were posting, Last First Day of School photos. Aside from feeling somewhat blue because my respective parent didn't pester me for a pic, I couldn't help but reflect on how much I've grown and how much I've changed from my itty bitty freshman years. And this whole day has been more or less: surreal.
I remember I walked on campus with both my parents to see me off in the wee hours of the morning, but now I come back, with a car nonetheless, and I walk into the halls alone, but more assured of myself than the little 15 year old who turned back to wave good bye.
Changes? Well, for one thing: just knowing. I know more people, I know more places, and I know my way around the school. Needless to say, I was confident, now my only hope is that I can carry that with me after high school. If there's anything I've learned about being an introvert in high school, you can't wait for experience to give that confidence boost.
Each year, I've gotten more comfortable in my skin at school, which is a given with time and experience, but I've noticed that I'm like a snake lurking in the undergrowth, checking my surroundings, before I slither out of the shadows. I wait until I'm comfortable enough before I really venture out.
People say that timing is everything, and I would have to agree, because I realized that I could have done more stuff, if I had just hit the ground running instead of just waiting. That can be my problem sometimes: waaaaaaiiiiittttiiiiinnnnnggggggg,
If there's something I've improved on, it's being more proactive. Call it an introvert's occupational hazard but ideas and daydreams swarm about in my head like bees, but I've never actually produced the honey (please excuse the excessive use of simile, I quite like them). As the years have gone by, I've worked on branching out without so much deliberation. Deliberation is just a rational word for indecision which is something that I have a lot. Thus, there really isn't much that I can say that won't sound cliche. Yes, I've grown, and yes, I've experienced so many new things by just "putting myself out there", but the thing is making a habit of it.
So while I begin the last of my first day of school, my goal is to not only do better in school, but to make sure that I don't rely on experience to boost my confidence. I want any confidence that I gain, to stem from myself. I don't want to wait until circumstances fit to my terms, I want to fit the terms of whatever circumstance I encounter. Most importantly, I want to take a word out of my teacher's book: self-pride. I want to gain confidence in my capabilities even if I find myself among the "best and the brightest" as he put it.
The point is: it's ok to be the freshman, it's normal because it's about the experience; however, don't wait to be a senior to gain a presence. All the Alpha's had to start somewhere. Confidence is best manifested from yourself and yourself only. Ha! Look at me, sounding like a wizened man with a long beard and white hair. Even though I may not be Gandalf or Dumbledore, hopefully my two cents will help you, enlighten you, or just entertain you. So,
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I remember I walked on campus with both my parents to see me off in the wee hours of the morning, but now I come back, with a car nonetheless, and I walk into the halls alone, but more assured of myself than the little 15 year old who turned back to wave good bye.
Changes? Well, for one thing: just knowing. I know more people, I know more places, and I know my way around the school. Needless to say, I was confident, now my only hope is that I can carry that with me after high school. If there's anything I've learned about being an introvert in high school, you can't wait for experience to give that confidence boost.
Each year, I've gotten more comfortable in my skin at school, which is a given with time and experience, but I've noticed that I'm like a snake lurking in the undergrowth, checking my surroundings, before I slither out of the shadows. I wait until I'm comfortable enough before I really venture out.
People say that timing is everything, and I would have to agree, because I realized that I could have done more stuff, if I had just hit the ground running instead of just waiting. That can be my problem sometimes: waaaaaaiiiiittttiiiiinnnnnggggggg,
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| Prime Example of moi. (I do not own this picture) |
So while I begin the last of my first day of school, my goal is to not only do better in school, but to make sure that I don't rely on experience to boost my confidence. I want any confidence that I gain, to stem from myself. I don't want to wait until circumstances fit to my terms, I want to fit the terms of whatever circumstance I encounter. Most importantly, I want to take a word out of my teacher's book: self-pride. I want to gain confidence in my capabilities even if I find myself among the "best and the brightest" as he put it.
The point is: it's ok to be the freshman, it's normal because it's about the experience; however, don't wait to be a senior to gain a presence. All the Alpha's had to start somewhere. Confidence is best manifested from yourself and yourself only. Ha! Look at me, sounding like a wizened man with a long beard and white hair. Even though I may not be Gandalf or Dumbledore, hopefully my two cents will help you, enlighten you, or just entertain you. So,
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Introvert's Guide: Have a Happy First Day of School!
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| I do not own this picture |
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